New Business

God I did it. I actually did it. I signed the papers, I filed the paperwork, I put my name on the line and there's no going back now. This business is real. It's not just a dream on a napkin anymore, it's not just a late-night idea I kept talking about it's happening. And I'm terrified. I need You to know that. I am absolutely terrified.

There were so many nights, God so many nights I couldn't sleep. Staring at the ceiling, running numbers in my head, rewriting the business plan for the fifteenth time. Trying to figure out if I was brave or just crazy. And the people around me some of them believed in me, but a lot of them didn't. I heard every version of "that's not gonna work." Every polite smile that really meant "you're making a mistake." That stuff got in my head. It lived there rent-free for months.

But something in my spirit wouldn't let it go. And I know that was You. That quiet nudge that kept saying move step out I've got something for you on the other side of this fear. You wouldn't let me settle. You wouldn't let me stay comfortable. Every time I tried to talk myself out of it, You put the fire right back in my chest.

So thank You for the push, God. Thank You for making me more afraid of staying still than stepping forward. Thank You for the courage I didn't even know I had the courage that only came because You planted it in me. I couldn't have taken this leap without knowing, somewhere deep down that You were already on the other side, waiting.

God, I'm asking You now establish the work of my hands. That's straight from Your Word, Psalm 90. Establish it. Make it firm. What I'm building, I don't want it to be built on hype or hustle alone I want it built on You. On integrity. On something real that lasts longer than a trend.

Give me wisdom, Lord. Every decision that lands on my desk, every contract, every hire, every pivot I need Your eyes on it. I don't want to be the smartest person in the room, I want to be the most obedient. Show me when to say yes and give me the backbone to say no even when the money looks good but the deal doesn't sit right in my spirit.

And God give me stamina. Because I know this is going to get hard. There are going to be months where the revenue doesn't match the vision. There are going to be moments I want to quit, moments I wonder what I was thinking. When those days come, remind me why I started. Remind me of this feeling right now this holy mix of fear and faith that only comes when you're exactly where You called you to be.

I commit this to You. Every dollar, every client, every late night and early morning. This isn't just my business it's my offering. I'm going to build something that honors You, that serves people well, that my kids can look at and know their parent walked by faith. I believe You're going to do something beautiful with this, God. And I can't wait to watch it unfold.